Be a doctor, lawyer, scholar, or be nothing, says the world.

It's hard for people interested in the Arts and Social Sciences to be living in a society like today. They always say, you'll never make it because you have no aim nor ability to study medicine. Then it makes me wonder, does studying Arts subjects make anyone lesser of a person than someone taking Science? My biggest regret of 2008 was choosing Science instead of Arts stream. It's one mistake I'll never forget my entire life for sure. Yet sometimes I am secretly thankful that when people ask what subjects I take, I can say I take Science subjects without the person looking down on me. I know my parents sometimes still live with the mentality that S is always better than A. And sadly, I sometimes find myself wondering that if they are right; especially when Iread emails from the school regarding Scholarship Talks (esp on medicine etc). They say that everyone can be successful in their chosen fields, but who knows if at the back of their minds, they are dying for everyone to get a scholorship? It sucks not being at the top. I am often scared that I'll not make it far in life because of the course I will soon take in university. I am afraid that S people really are brighter and more intellectual than A people. Then when I go to FASS in university, can I still proudly tell others what course I am in? I know it may sound very stupid, but I am really scared. I want my parents to be proud of me, and sometimes I wish that I could enable them to say proudly that their daughter is a accomplised professional in the medical/science field. But I'm 95% sure that this will never come to pass, and for this, I am afraid that they can never boast to others about my accomplishments. My parents are not the materialistic kind, but I know ultimately, every parent would like a child they can be very very proud of. Maybe it can't be confirmed that I can make Mummy and Daddy very very proud of me, but at least I can still try while I'm still trying.

SCARED.

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